Duck and Run

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If you’re unhappy, don’t hesitate, run!
Do you care for me?
I mean me
Not some figment of your mind
A construction of your need
Me
As I am

A human person
With the right to be as human
As everyone else

With foibles
Unwise wording
And differing beliefs

Am I okay as I am
Or only when I’m agreeing?
Am I nice if I say yes
But deeply suspect if I say no?

Am I a good person
Until I have one wobble?
Even if you may not know the cause
Or want to understand

No matter what you think
Or feel
Or want
This is the only real me

I am the sum total of my life
Much of which you haven’t shared
There are things you don’t know
Things I don’t understand
So how can you judge me?

I have been shaped in ways
That often puzzle me
I am a defensive expert
But I’ve never mastered the art of attack
Thank goodness

I mainly retreat 
Because I don’t connect to unkindness

Who am I to change you?
To even require you to change?
No one

Who are you to change me?
To even require me to change?
No one

But I am the only one 
Who can save me
When you’re hurting me
And the only one who will

So when I walk away
It isn’t because you’re not valuable
Or likeable
Far from it

It’s because there’s another emotional bullet heading my way
And if I want to stay sane
And continue to thrive
It’s better to

Duck and Run


Deb Hawken
August 2021


Published by debdancingstarhawken7

I'm a writer, public speaker, medium, and spiritual thinker. I suffered from acute anxiety from the age of 16 until I was well into my 50s, when I finally found methods that helped me to put it behind me. My struggles led to me exploring life through poetry, then plays, and over a 15 year period I made notes for a self help book which I published in 2015. Details on the book page. Although I am a psychic medium and loved the work, it didn’t feel right for me. It was an utter privilege, but my path was the exploration of what it means to be spirit in the real world and how we can make practical use of those abilities. Nowadays I write, blog, and teach soul-centred living, which is a gentle way of undoing past programming and connecting to your essential self, or soul. If you’re interested email me and we can chat. No pressure, it’s right for you or it’s not and you will know. The groups meet on line so no going out on cold, wet, winter’s evenings. On a personal note, I’m based in the UK. Married with five cats, no children, and four grandchildren, thanks to our inherited daughter, who has gifted us four beautiful little people that bring us such joy. Hope you enjoy the blogs. Deb xx

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