How do you unwind after a demanding day?
I have had a tricky day today. I’ve been having health investigations and although the result wasn’t brilliant, it was way better than expected. I’m immensely grateful for that.
Having been blessed with excellent health all my life I was very surprised how emotionally exhausting it all is. The scary ‘firsts’, needles where needles should not be. The way the fear drains you, or more accurately, the way your mind runs riot coming up with scenarios not conducive to a relaxed state of mind or body.
None of which came true.
But the most amazing thing was the NHS in my area, efficient doesn’t come close. I called my GP and said I didn’t need an emergency appointment because I’d waited a bit to see what happened. Five minutes later the concerned receptionist had gone straight to one of the doctors and told him.
He promptly called me, and asked could I get there in half an hour, we said yes, and the experience was amazing. He referred me half an hour later, I was called by the hospital two working days later, booked in a week later, had all my tests on the same day, including a scan. Results one week later after waiting for test results.
Today I was gently told what it was, that it can be controlled with medication, and discovered that all the horror stories I’d made up were total junk.
The kindness and understanding I’ve met with all the way through has been off the scales. Of course you were scared to come, no you don’t deserve this, it’s okay to be nervous, it isn’t your fault, you’re not the only one who ran in the other direction.
If you or anyone you love has concerns, particularly when it comes to cancer, I encourage you to head to your doctor at the earliest opportunity. They can do so much now, it’s not all about chemo or surgery. If your hospital is anything like ours, you will feel so safe and held you won’t believe it.
I’m on tablets for life, but when you consider the advances in medicine nowadays, that comes with a vast amount of optimism.
This is the last time I will write about this, because it’s not a subject that is pleasant. I’m moving on now to a meditation programme with a guy who works scientifically in the area of mind control to help the body.
It was my mental health that made me run, years ago I had to block all thought of illness due to stupid adults around me. I don’t need to run now.
Which proves that, as they say: sometimes the worst thing that’s ever happened to you can turn out to be one of the best.
See my next blog – you are the programmer, where I will talk about the vulnerability of childrens’ minds.
Best love
Amorah – Deb
And grateful thanks to the Alexandra Hospital in Redditch, Worcestershire, UK.
Deb Hawken - Amorah 