A Day I Feel Good

Describe your most ideal day from beginning to end.

That’s it. If I feel good the day can go with the flow.

Today I don’t. I made a stupid mistake. I went into over-caring. Trying to solve a problem that in truth if those involved had wanted it solved, they would have done it years so.

I’ve done this so many times because I know what being hurt feels like, I’ve dedicated my life to trying to help people through that if I can. 90% of the time I get it right, but you can’t please all of the people all of the time, as they say. I get so upset with myself when I do this though.

It’s unrealistic. At least I tried in my own only too human way, and that’s better than nothing. I’m hoping my heartfelt apology will be accepted, but maybe it won’t. It won’t be the first time with this wider connection.

So…what did I learn?

That I try too hard and give too much at times. I did make a mistake, definitely, but not one meant maliciously.

That I need to forgive myself because no one else can.

That people who don’t know you well will not get your way of communicating and you need to be far more careful how you word yourself. I knew what I meant, the person reading it did not.

That no matter how hard you try you will get things wrong, but you must never get cynical and stop being who you are, just seek to improve on it.

When you feel for a person you don’t know well, just send love and healing.

And…

I really prefer my cave!

Sigh.

If you’re young and reading this, don’t fall for the myth that your elders have it all nailed, nothing could be further from the truth. We’re all just doing our best at whatever age. There are too many unique people in this world to get everything right with everyone.

Take the pressure off, especially if you’re heart centred. If you really want to help others I’ve learned that you need to be discerning, choose wisely, don’t be too free with that heart. Otherwise you’ll be the one who keeps hurting yourself.

Best love

Hope this helps somehow

Amorah – Deb