Spirit

What principles define how you live?

When you get a hole in the clouds like this I always feel like I’m looking into another world. As if it’s an opening into a magical realm.

I grabbed this photo when I was trying to capture the northern lights the other night, hoping they’d peep through that gap. I do love the image though.

Not possible to drink

Of course I’m talking about that sense of connectedness when I talk about spirit. It’s not so much the worship of one being, although I firmly believe that Source has proven its existence to me personally.

I would never try to convince you, but for me there have been actual miracles in my life that I can explain no other way. I can’t ignore them.

The sense of being connected includes every living thing, including the Earth, the skies above, and the fire below. People like me feel that we are one with life, and part of a greater whole, rather than the centre around which the world revolves.

Our cats

We often get into a bit of trouble when we know we have to fill a gap, although a thousand cats can’t fill the gap of the missing one. But we know when to start looking, I have since 1984 when as a dog person I decided to rescue two creatures I was actually terrified of; I just knew I had to do that.

Rescue centres try to tell us how it will be, and almost never understand why we let them come to us. We quite often, after 40 successful years of cat adoration, get a little lecture about how they don’t have to come to us, and they will warm up when they settle. It makes us smile.

We once rescued a cat so completely depressed we didn’t see his face until we got him home. But we knew we had to do that. From the moment I saw a brown blur through obscured glass I knew. From the moment he saw him, Tony knew. He thawed inside one plate of food and was the most amazing being. But if he’d spent his life quietly asleep, that would have been okay too.

For us it’s about respect for all living things. We don’t ever own a soul, we care for it. So to allow them to show us that they will feel comfortable is about the same respect we would show a human.

The cats are probably the best example of that feeling of being part of rather than superior to. We owe them so much in the way of love, fun, and laughter.

Guiding light

An on the ground, every minute of every hour of every day principle of living. You cannot fool God/Source no matter what stories you make up to justify your words or actions. I can’t. End of.

I do not believe in confessing my sins. I believe in making them right with the people I’ve made them wrong with. Facing myself head on.

Perhaps the idea of confession was to get you to listen to your own behaviour? But how can you allow God to forgive you for the penance of a few prayers when it wasn’t your god that you hurt?

I didn’t believe I was fooling God from the word go. I also didn’t believe that the Vicar was speaking for Him. The vicar wasn’t kind. I have met superb people of the cloth though. One supported me leaving my first marriage, something he never thought he would do. But he knew what was right.

When I left the church I realised that there was no reason to leave God, I just had to find Him in the world, and there He was, in everything.

Which is why I respect all living things except deliberately cruel humans. They make a choice I can never respect! Why were war mongers who think killing millions makes them powerful ever born? Why were their parents fertile?

Same goes for cruel and unkind humans everywhere, from prejudice, to physical violence, to spite and cruelty of all kinds, did their parents really have to meet?

You see, it’s that soul thing again, I wouldn’t kill them I’d prevent them. If I had a chance to stop them, that would make me think twice. Could I fire a gun into head of a person who’s slaughtering innocents? I honestly don’t know. Would I be wrong if I did? I honestly don’t think so. I hope I’m never in that position, especially as I’d probably miss.

To me personally if you say one thing but you are another you are seen and heard. Once I understood deep in my heart how real what I feel is to me, there was never anywhere to hide.

Have I always lived up to myself? I wish! But I have tried and I maintain an internal awareness, my bullsh*t monitor is set to extreme sensitivity.

In truth I just genuinely do my utmost to be not what God/Source wants me to be, but to be what my soul knows is right. Because I have been hurt so much, so often, by people who could justify their actions as being my fault.

Now I do the opposite, I build, I encourage, I support, and I teach another way. Anyone who knows me would fearlessly tell me anything knowing that they would have no need to feel small or stupid, I’d listen and I’d help. Because I’ve made mistakes and I don’t expect more of others than I can deliver.

Our cats don’t always behave and we don’t care, they have to express themselves their way.

As always, when I used the term God, I am only using English spelling, please translate into your own language.

With global love and respect

Deb xx