In re-reading this after so many years I felt uncomfortable with the anti-male attitude, but instead it's an exploration of feelings, and an acknowledgement that what we feel may not be the only truth.
She turns and smiles at me
and I feel my womb smile in return
and echo on my face
She glistens radiant in white
while I pray that this time it will be different
this time he wants what she has to give
Or will he subconsciously want only what he desires
his actions ignoring her every need
until there is nothing for her to need anymore
And she gives up the pursuit of happiness
in favour of caution and freedom from blame
Will her life be a typical woman’s life?
Will she lose step by step
every dream she ever treasured
every hope she ever nurtured?
Will she see her future swirling
into the drain of his ambition?
Will she be beguiled by words of
want - love - respect
yet be ignored?
Will she weep tears of bitterness and frustration
because she is the victim of lip-service
and a mind full of avoidance?
Will she produce one or two good things in her life
only to see them walk away from her
as she now walks away from me?
The one person who understands
yet dare not speak for fear that bitterness
and years of shattered hopes
have left behind a shell that lacks perspective
and a heart without reason
So today I pray “please God
Let this time be different
Let this man truly want what he says he wants
Let this man know what is important in life
and what is temporary glory
Please God, let him love her
©Deb Hawken
2007
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I'm a writer, public speaker, medium, and spiritual thinker. I suffered from acute anxiety from the age of 16 until I was well into my 50s, when I finally found methods that helped me to put it behind me. My struggles led to me exploring life through poetry, then plays, and over a 15 year period I made notes for a self help book which I published in 2015. Details on the book page. Although I am a psychic medium and loved the work, it didn’t feel right for me. It was an utter privilege, but my path was the exploration of what it means to be spirit in the real world and how we can make practical use of those abilities. Nowadays I write, blog, and teach soul-centred living, which is a gentle way of undoing past programming and connecting to your essential self, or soul. If you’re interested email me and we can chat. No pressure, it’s right for you or it’s not and you will know. The groups meet on line so no going out on cold, wet, winter’s evenings. On a personal note, I’m based in the UK. Married with five cats, no children, and four grandchildren, thanks to our inherited daughter, who has gifted us four beautiful little people that bring us such joy. Hope you enjoy the blogs. Deb xx
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