All the love I’ve ever had
Has turned bad
From the cradle until one single moment
Until that moment
Rather than a flame to attract
I wasn’t even a spark of light
Not even a candle extinguished by the wind
Where was my right to love and be loved?
I dreamed and I hoped
I tried and I lost
I loved and I got hurt
And I gave up
Well not quite
Because there was a voice inside me
That said
Love is yours by right
It is a divine right of being
You were born from love
Born from the light of the world
Love may have unfurled
In the wrong way
But if you go the wrong way
There is always a way back
And a way forward
Beings of love will always find those ways
I didn’t believe my own voice
I didn’t trust me
But then I began to love me
To see that I was the best me I could be
And not always wrong
Not always to be found wanting
Just human
And loveable
And real
Then I listened to that voice again
And I found love with many feet
In many ways
Feline and human
Friend and Soul Mate
In the world outside myself
And the world inside
I still don’t get everything right
For everyone
And sometimes my love falls on stony ground
To wither and die
But when I look around
There are flowers everywhere
Called people
Called pets
Called experiences
Called life
And I know
That once I was love
I became
And found
All the love I could be
As you can
And you will
If you love you enough
(And you should)
Deb (Dancing Star) Hawken
August 2017
I'm a writer, public speaker, medium, and spiritual thinker. I suffered from acute anxiety from the age of 16 until I was well into my 50s, when I finally found methods that helped me to put it behind me. My struggles led to me exploring life through poetry, then plays, and over a 15 year period I made notes for a self help book which I published in 2015. Details on the book page. Although I am a psychic medium and loved the work, it didn’t feel right for me. It was an utter privilege, but my path was the exploration of what it means to be spirit in the real world and how we can make practical use of those abilities. Nowadays I write, blog, and teach soul-centred living, which is a gentle way of undoing past programming and connecting to your essential self, or soul. If you’re interested email me and we can chat. No pressure, it’s right for you or it’s not and you will know. The groups meet on line so no going out on cold, wet, winter’s evenings. On a personal note, I’m based in the UK. Married with five cats, no children, and four grandchildren, thanks to our inherited daughter, who has gifted us four beautiful little people that bring us such joy. Hope you enjoy the blogs. Deb xx
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