Which relationship has taught you the most about yourself?
This is a very hard one, the facts of relationships with me are not pretty and wouldn’t make for a good read. So how to put this?
Best to focus on me because I have learned a lot of things about myself through those relationships, that I’m grateful for. Oddly if I’d been well liked I may have missed out on so much good.
Different doesn’t mix well
I was born different. I knew it at a very early age. I obviously had no words for it then and I don’t now, it just is, often uncomfortably so.
As far back as I remember I felt older than my parents. As if I had two minds, one was being a child and one was observing them. That hasn’t changed. Thankfully neither mind was or is judgmental.
In my work I have a strong ability to connect with people. From a stage I can keep an audience with me easily. I think they sense that I’m truly there to help, genuinely care, and my sense of humour makes it less heavy.
One to one I can struggle to connect. I have had so many amazing people in my life that I’ve truly valued and loved walk away. They never gave a reason. Nowadays I don’t even try to make more friends. What I have is wonderful, and wonderful is way more than good enough.
If a new friend turned up though I’d be delighted. Never be too old to make friends.
My guess at why
I simply don’t think the same as other people. I believe I know why and it might sound a bit odd but it evolved naturally for me. I followed a path and knowledge kept arriving to lead me.
I feel I’m what they call a Starseed. There is a theory that there are many groups of beings in the Universe. That we visit other dimensions to gain experience, but Starseeds are primarily here to help. As such, if I am a Starseed, then I’m happy to be here for that reason.
It does develop you though so it’s a win/win. I know I’m a better person than I would have been thanks to the blessing that found me.
Thank God it did as nothing else was working in my life at the time, I see that as destiny talking now.
“A nudge in the right direction might help her.”
“Okay, throw a book at her.”
“Try sticking a brick in the book! Ah that worked!”
So my best guess at the way my life has worked out is the ‘different’ needs its own tribe, and it may never be a large tribe. But a few good people is definitely good enough, and I’ve got way better than that.
Best love
Amorah – Deb
