What’s a lesson you’ve learned recently that shifted your perspective?
So, the lesson was a diagnosis. I can’t even say a scary one although I always thought it would be if it happened.
My team is just so good, calm, gentle, and kind, that I feel safe. I’m also happy to leave the issue to the people who know what to do. I’ve realised there’s no point worrying because they are the only ones who know what they’re doing. So I’m staying out of the way, trusting them which is easy, and working on keeping my mind in a good place.
If you told people that used to know me this, they would not believe you. A friend, all too familiar with my crippling acute anxiety, paid me the greatest compliment I’ve ever received. She said:
“The person sitting in that chair today is the polar opposite of the person I used to know.”
That’s some shift in perspective, and I’m grateful she sees this as it really gave me a boost.
The really wonderful thing is that I’m feeling better in myself than I have in years. I don’t think about bad things anymore. I used to obsess on illnesses I didn’t have (dad and I both had acute medical anxiety), now I don’t think about the condition I’m being treated for. I just do as I’m told.
I’ve more energy, more enthusiasm, more joy in life. Prior to this I was quite flat and depressed and easily tired. Laid in bed in the mornings for far too long. Now I’m fidgety half an hour after I wake up.
Today I walked to the Titanic Exhibition at the NEC from the car park, quite a trot, all round the exhibition for two hours, then we popped across to the other side of the complex for a coffee, walked all around the shopping centre, and came home. I could easily have done twice that and kept going.
It’s just wonderful, certainly I have got far more good from this than I could ever have hoped or expected. It’s a life perspective that I love. I know what isn’t a problem and that includes all life’s irritations!
Best Love
Amorah – Deb
Deb Hawken - Amorah 