Minefield Question

Who are your current most favorite people?

If you’re in my life you matter. If I say I love you I do. I mean what I say.

I’m going general for two reasons: firstly, what if I forgot someone? For another, it’s more complex for me.

Many of my favourite people are no longer in this world, but they still count in the here and now. For me they’re still my present, still current.

My grandfather has been gone 62 years and he’s still right up there, ditto nan, dad, and mum. Cast in order of disappearance.

The aunt and uncle I first lost when the relationship went wrong, they’re on that list. I have many more good memories. My cousin I couldn’t cope with for very sad reasons, is still on that list.

My groups are on that that list. Facebook connections are on that list. However remote they matter.

Our former vets are on that list, particularly one who is now a friend. The three of them took veterinary skills and built their own ballpark.

It’s one thing to be a ‘favourite’ but every human is precious and for different reasons.

Katrina, Kim, and Luke are often mentioned, and my love for them knows no boundaries. My love for my inherited daughter is deeper than I could ever have imagined.

Every single person in my life, both sides of it, is on that list.

Writing my way through this

Yet I cannot play favourites, and I’ve worked out why. Because all my childhood and youth I was not the favourite. Until I met Tony I was not anyone’s favourite. In my family I was an object of jealousy, how you manage that whilst not the favourite I do not know.

The classic one was “I can’t stand her, I can see that she’s a really nice kind person and I don’t know why, I just can’t.” Answers on a postcard of you begin to understand that one!

The other was that I was arrogant and thought too much of myself. My uppermost feeling about myself was that I prayed my mind would hold up. I didn’t have the mental energy to be precious.

Plus sincerely believing in the afterlife, as I do, I still would not want to forget one of the many in that world. I’m sure they wouldn’t feel at all upset, it’s not that kind of place, but I would. That would represent a thoughtlessness that so often hurt me.

You’d come back in a few weeks time and find an ever growing list of P.S.’s.

Then there are the dogs, guinea pigs, the tortoise, my budgie, and all my precious cats.

See what I mean? 🤣

I know I’m a very complex thinker on these matters, some may be rolling their eyes and thinking “it’s not that difficult…name two!” But which of the cats do I choose? 😻💖🤣

The truth is simple. In the face of unkindness I choose to be kind. In the face of thoughtlessness I choose to be thoughtful. In the face of being dismissed I choose to make everyone important. Before the eyes of God I choose to make everything He created precious and equal to me.

I chose to be the change I wanted to see, I’m not saying I do it well, or simply, but I do my best.

That’s where this question lands us. One flawed human just trying to be what the world needs. Walk around the ants today, God created them because they matter.

So do you.

Best love

Amorah – Deb xx