As I Talk

As I talk
I walk
As I move through life
I learn

What was obviously right
Changed
What seemed wrong
Softened with understanding

I have learned
There is only one me
One unique person
With unique life experience

Whose knowledge is personal
Whose life has it's own singular path
Affected by others
But owned entirely
By me

Meaning changes
I learned that blame solves nothing
The only power I have
Is me

Aside from all violence
No one did anything to me
That I did not allow
Because I was never taught my worth

I stayed where I shouldn't
I walked with poison
I heard destruction
Trying was pointless
There was no pleasing

I do not blame myself
I did not know that I had the power to stop this
That I was free to walk away
Even from places I felt trapped
Relationships that destroyed me
And jobs that made me feel worthless

Then one day I woke up
As me
I saw how hard I'd tried
How my heart was still unspoilt
How I could have compassion
For those so damaged
They were human weapons of mass destruction

Seeking any target
They made others feel worthless
To make themselves feel worthwhile
Poor souls
No power you take from others belongs to you
You're just a thief of hope

I realised that I was a good person
Human and fallible but I try hard
I like and respect others on sight
Perfection is not required for you to be in my life
And that doesn't change unless you change it

As I talk
I walk
As I move through life I spread love
Not because I was beaten
Because I kept myself intact
I didn't allow life to poison me

I built a castle out of the pain
Surrounded by rainbows
Warmed by the sunlight
And filled with love
I could do this because

I won

Deb Hawken - Amorah - 2025
Loving Light

To be a loving light in your own life, and for others, remember that loving lights are strong, and like a bird of prey they take the higher view and only engage when the right thing appears.
Go to your higher self, take in the full picture,
engage or quietly fly away.