Me

On what subject(s) are you an authority?

The only thing I claim authority over is myself.

Even authorities in subjects have more to learn, there are always new developments, or ways of doing and approaching things, so it’s really hard to be an authentic authority.

Scientists can undertake experiments and come to with two different theories, such as with Covid. To have the jabs or not to be jabbed, that was the question. Qualified scientists disagreed. We tossed a coin and prayed.

I’m also a history graduate, and every time new government papers are released, or new evidence is discovered, you may have to rewrite history.

If ever we’re told the truth about the Kennedy Assassination, there may be a complete about turn on what we think we know. Who knows.

Allowing

When it comes to the self you have to allow yourself to be the expert, otherwise you’ll have so many voices inside your head you won’t know which one of you thinks what.

We all have the right to define ourselves, we’re actually the only person who can. If we choose to allow others to make us question ourselves then we lose ourselves.

If we lose ourselves we feel permanently lost.

You probably know any number of people who have said that they feel lost, alone, or afraid. That’s often because they’ve taken their identity from others, believed what was said about them, believed many different things that were said about them, and become a mixture of false beliefs that were never theirs.

When they’ve lost someone they love they’ve stopped living, because they never saw themselves as anything but an extension of someone else. Losing someone is horrific, but if you have a sense of self,l then you will gradually step forward encompassing that loss and being oh so grateful for your memories.

How I know this

I learned the hard way of course. I write to help people learn the easy way.

I was born kind. I was born 40. I was born with a knowing.

I have accidentally hurt others, but the worst thing I did was to be pulled into a relationship with an aunt I adored, who returned to my life when I was 24 after a 14 year absence. That Grace her a huge impact on my life, and I took on too much of what was her. She had such a fun side, but behind it was something else entirely.

That changed who I was to the point that I was horrified when I woke up after a few years of sleepwalking into poison. But it did me the most good.

I hold onto who I am with an iron grip now, I let no one change it, but I do listen to good people and take in what they say to enhance and improve me.

And yes I still love my now late aunt. She had many good qualities, but hurt changed her and she wasn’t without good reason. I always try to remember the nice side though, we’re all human.

Faith

I’m reading a book about the power of the subconscious mind, and how our conscious minds train it. The author says that faith in the self is one of the most important things we need in life.

I don’t think we should underestimate the truth of that.

Go inside, listen to others, but pay attention to your reaction. Always make decisions based on your reaction. Your feelings and your truth.

No matter what anyone else thinks, you have to live your life, and you are the only authority in your life.

Fact.

You’ll only feel lost and unsettled if you don’t believe that, and stay true to you.

Best love

Deb xx