Spock

Write about your first crush.

There was a rumour that women were drawn to Spock because they wanted to be the one to make him feel emotion. The ultimate triumph.

However, as a 13 year old I wasn’t capable of that, true I was becoming an adult, but even so I don’t think I had the emotional range for it. We were very naive in my day and age, at that age. So what was it?

I still think Leonard Nimoy was an incredibly good looking man, not handsome by any means, but captivating, strong, and unforgettable. Handsome and pretty only take you so far. There is something very attractive about substance and it lasts a lifetime.

As I tune in now and reflect, I think there was something quiet about him that you felt you could trust. My fantasies didn’t involve anything I had no idea how to do, they were mainly around being with him, and oddly working and walking alongside him.

When I think of it now it is similar to the feeling of my guide Amos: a safe space where you feel loved unconditionally. Maybe with all the emotions flying around in my family I needed that calm, quiet, strength. I certainly needed lack of negative emotion. That peacefulness.

My dreams of our relationship were definitely a meeting of the minds. Quiet walks, peace, feeling safe (again, that thought keeps cropping up).

Frankly I think he was everything my family wasn’t and everything I wanted to be. still want to be.

What the past can teach

In some ways I’m rather like Spock. I seek peace and calm not emotion. I seek to love, which is of course an emotion but it’s one with a million ramifications. World peace being one.

If you can love you can’t do harm.

Not in the name of any religion, race, or ideology. You just can’t. It’s…well…logical. A loving person wouldn’t build a weapon. Just why?

It makes no sense.

Just talk, live your lives, leave each other alone. Leave animals alone. Leave children alone. Let life be.

Like him, I’m the quiet one in the corner at parties, observing. For a loquacious person with a cracking sense of humour, the more people there are the quieter I am.

I also know that when you actually meet me I come across with a strong sense of reserve, of standing apart, essentially I do. Partly because I’m so often misjudged.

For years I’ve understood that the amount of love I have to give others can be overwhelming. I see incredible amounts of beauty and goodness in amazing people who don’t see it. Which makes them think I’m fake, based on their own feelings about themselves. Whereas I see them. I dial that back.

Fortunately I also have friends who can cope with it and give as good as they get.

The cats are such an amazing outlet for that love and I’m grateful to have somewhere to put it.

So I guess I’m saying the connection to Spock was one of quiet similarity. Stand back and observe humans but don’t let them affect who you are.

Pleaidian

A friend mentioned to Katrina a couple of weeks ago that she didn’t think I was from here, I was a star person, a Pleaidian. She’s kind of right.

There is a theory that the star beings have sent a lot of people through to this world to try to combat the way humanity is developing. The fear that leads to war, the fear that leads to violence, the fear that leads to the need to take power over others. The fear that leads to nastiness, hurt, and unhappiness.

There will be millions of us. If you’re ‘woke’ you’re likely to be on this team. If you are able to respect others without feeling threatened by them, ditto. If you’re kind and respectful, definitely. If wars, rape, abuse, and trolling, make no sense, you’re probably a star.

If harming any living thing sickens you – you’re definitely on the side of everything that is right and needed in the world. The others are not needed.

Do we come from other star systems? I have my personal beliefs obviously, but equally obviously they are only personal based on my life experience. So no, in the interests of honesty I can neither confirm nor deny, but I definitely can’t deny.

All I can say is two things:

We might as well be from the stars because the ‘others’ make no sense whatsoever.

And

Never change

It’s just logical to be us.

Best love, more love, extra love, and all the love…

Deb xx

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