Not a Risk Taker

Describe a risk you took that you do not regret.

I am so not a risk taker at a normal level. I’m the sort of person whose money would be in low risk stocks and shares with perhaps the smallest dip into medium. Partly because I don’t know what I’m doing well enough to do more.

I look both ways crossing the road. I do no sports that might result in a bruise. I am absolutely disinterested in anything like mountain climbing or hurling myself out of planes unnecessarily. Fear isn’t my first reaction, “why?” is.

I have the wrong type of adrenaline for anything scary. I didn’t know until a few years ago that for some people adrenaline makes them strong, for others it saps the strength, I’m one of the latter.

My instructor then helpfully suggested that if anyone was going to have a car fall on them it should be me, as Tony would be able to lift it. I wasn’t sure how thrilled I was with that idea, or why I would be under a car in the first place.

Fed up with fear

Perhaps years of anxiety means I’d rather not choose to frighten myself. I was bored by feeling scared all the time by the time I was 17.

The risk I stupidly took during those years was keeping people in my life who were actively making me worse. Part of the reason I think taking risks is stupid.

I’d say it’s important never to risk your mind, but then your body apparently carries your mind so why risk that either?

On the other hand, physicists have proved that your memories are actually stored in your energy field not your head, but even that doesn’t help because if you forget your parachute when jumping out of a plane the absence of a head severely curtails the use of memories.

That subtly risky thing

Unless of course you know a medium, for some reason we can connect to the memories of others, but then I went on several courses of 60 plus attendees and virtually everyone succeeded in doing that. Which makes sense as everything in this universe is part of one field – the atomic field.

If you wonder how you know what a pet is thinking, ask yourself why. You can connect to others metaphysically via the energy they put out, human or animal, it doesn’t matter.

You know yourself that people put out atmospheres. As a child, way before all this experience, I knew when I walked in the front door whether my nan was having a down day.

Mediumship is a risky thing to talk about as it has many connotations, one of them that your mother-in-law might still be able to lecture you, or your mum still has eyes in the back of her head and you still can’t get away with anything. That’s on the lighter side of course.

The main connotation naturally is death, and there is a huge need to be sensitive about that. To understand that your very presence in a room can be frightening for some people. Young people don’t even want to think about any of that stuff, and rightly so.

It’s definitely not the first thing I tell people about myself, but you often find that people at gatherings will come up and just start chatting to you, and the subject comes up. Usually it’s about a loss, and somehow those people know they can talk to you, that you won’t leave by the nearest window, or suddenly see an old friend across the room, that you must catch up with. Then go a talk to a total, rather bewildered, stranger.

When it comes to risk, you do lose people over it, which is sad. I’ve even been told I should be hung, drawn, and quartered. Which seems slightly extreme.

I do wonder if any of the people who hung witches wondered why they didn’t curse them before they died? Perhaps because they were simply herbalists who weren’t capable of that?

It’s hard to say, or rather logical, depending on how you think about it.

So, when during a phone call, or half way down the stairs one day, you suddenly find out you’re different, there is a risk involved, mainly emotionally, thank God, but it can be nasty.

However, that’s one risk I’m happy to take, not because I work as a medium any longer, but simply because people can talk to me about loss and I can be there for them. I don’t even need to mention the mediumship, it’s not relevant at that time and absolutely wrong to offer a reading that soon, I don’t offer them now anyway.

No, it’s enough that I can sit there and listen, without worrying how much it’s upsetting me, reminding me of when I lost my mum or a pet, or I don’t know what to say and wish I could run. I can be present with that person and help them bear that lonely burden. I don’t need to cut them out of my life for a bit because I can’t cope.

I will always be grateful for that. People don’t need to risk loneliness at a terrible time if they know me, and my many colleagues around the world.

Best love to you and yours

Deb xx