Strength

Describe a positive thing a family member has done for you.

This is where I thank God for the fact that I found a spiritual path, which I know was my destiny and my purpose in this life. Otherwise this blog would be grim.

It’s on record that my family situation was a disaster of past hurts which eventually led to the fragmentation of my generation. I don’t know if my middle aunt’s children are close, they weren’t when last I heard.

Stand alone with benefits

My family did gift me a lot but not in doing anything for me, more they showed me what I didn’t want to be, but in the case of my parents and maternal grandparents, they gifted me the character traits I could build on.

My mother was incredibly wise and understanding. She could read people like a book, yet always with compassion. She was my best friend and the one with the courage to come and get me back.

I was isolated because my ex and my brother’s first wife were colluding. My mother overheard them and acted immediately.

Those traits I have from her, and with spiritual support and learning I have been able to build on them.

My father gifted me a cracking sense of humour, with a sense of decency, and my straightness tempered by compassion. He was never rude.

He could discipline us with a combination of two ‘looks’, he didn’t believe in smacking. I think we might have preferred that to his disappointed look, and definitely more than his ‘“you’ve gone too far!” look. The only time I’ve ever been terrified by non-violence.

My grandfather is best described as “If you can’t say anything good don’t say anything at all”. That sums him up nicely and I believe that with all my heart.

My Nan was a quiet rule breaking revolutionary and is my saving grace. Without her input into my existence I wouldn’t have overcome anxiety, and certainly I would have struggled a great deal more with my trigger issues. Thanks to her I’m sane. She gave me the foundation to build on.

Both generations experienced intense hurt, the kinds that make you grateful you weren’t them. One lived through two world wars, my parents lived through one. It built stoicism in them. I think I have that in my own way.

Fortunately I came into the family as a self-sufficient person which helped to me to cope with their damage, and my own.

Another branch of my family were terribly damaged to the point of toxicity. I got caught up in it, the big regret of my life, but oh Lord it taught me what I didn’t want to be and showed me that I needed to change. I did love them all so much, and I regret more than I can tell you having to walk away from a person, who couldn’t escape the mindset. It was that bad.

Change turned out to be going within and finding the person I was born to be, thank God she was still there.

Alone with benefits

I wasn’t intended to work in the spiritual field, but in joining it for mediumship training, because I’d started knowing things about people I couldn’t possibly know, and I had no idea what it was, why I had it, and what to do with it, I connected with my first Spirit Guide.

There is no more loving teaching, no greater wisdom, no kinder kindness and compassion, than you will receive from a guide. Unlike humans they understand free will, and never tell you what to do or how, they guide you gently to your truth.

Everyone has one. Many people have told me they have a guardian angel who protects them. People who wouldn’t consider themselves mediums. We’re actually all capable of connection to spirit, it’s just energy and atoms. Same as walking into a room and knowing that two smiling people have just had a row. Or calling your bestie and asking them what’s wrong because you just know.

As you can see, because of my family I have the strength to walk my own path, because of Amos I never walk alone. And God, your God lets no one walk alone. If you listen.

Love and more love

Deb xx