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Is there an age or year of your life you would re-live?

However, would I be the me I am now if I changed something? Would things be better or worse? Or does destiny suggest – exactly the same?

One thing I do know, I would pursue my playwriting with utter determination if I could go back to when I stopped. I had real opportunities there but anxiety got in the way. I would never allow that again.

However, to make it work I would have to know what I know now, and we know there’s a cosmic rule against that. There’s long-term memory and cosmically long.

Maybe we do know but it takes too long to retrieve the memory? Maybe that’s what 20/20 hindsight is?

“Eureka! Got it!”

“Too late slow coach!”

“Who are you calling slow coach! I had to go through several mind numbingly boring lifetimes all the way back to Ancient Egypt to get that answer, you ungrateful wretch!”

Maybe gut instinct is the way we’re supposed to know?

“Oh thank you! I do all that thinking and processing, at the speed of light I may add, only for you to finally realise that you’ve got a gut you’re supposed to listen to. That’s it! I’m having a thinking break. Good luck with finding your car keys! Tell you where they are next week! If I can still remember!”

Yep, going back not an option. Therefore no point questioning a past you can’t change. Going back to see a lost loved one or pet would mean losing them again.

Going back in any way would probably mean you’d return to the present and immediately remember something else you wish you could relive, or something you forgot to do while you were reliving it.

The river of life flows one way, tuck your memories safely in your heart, wring the lessons from your mistakes, and look forward to the happiness you have the power to create.

Deb xx