What things give you energy?
Being an empath I struggle with my energy in this world, it sounds all very glamorous, but I’m not the type to put a shaky feminine hand to my forehead and quiveringly speak of my struggles. It p*sses me off.
What irritates even more is that every autumn I go down like a ton of bricks emotionally. My Guide says I react to the sap dropping in the trees and should live in an urban area or somewhere very open where the trees are miles away. He points out that I was born in central London for a reason. As I never wanted to move away I am at least something of a genius. 🤣🤣🤣
I do love music. I do love laughter but don’t hear enough of it, we saw The Blue Man Group on Thursday and that was a definite lift. If you haven’t seen them…highly recommended.
I maintain my energy mainly by staying very quiet, but I also know that isn’t good for me. I’d love a dynamic group of people, not needing to be leaders or right, where we could work together towards a positive aim. But I learned years that that those people are as rare as hen’s teeth, and many relationships need careful managing, and a punch bag at home!
It’s exhausting. It’s why I love my groups. We all get that and we work hard and determinedly to be a supportive force for good for each other. We’ve made it a real and deliberate focus. We’re choosing to be this.
The reason I don’t know what gives me energy is that some days I move mountains effortlessly, and it always feels that the energy is clear and uncluttered. Which is rare. But I had several weeks of that this summer and I’m so grateful.
Very occasionally now I have a writing blast where the air around me is filled with words and all I need to do is pluck them from the ether and record them. That makes me feel amazing.
I am writing a book of poetry now which is wonderful. But I’m not bothering to publish it as a book. I’m going to make them look pretty and then people can buy one or more. If they want it on a card for someone then I can arrange to send the file to them.
It will be more fun than worrying whether a book sells.
All in all, my energy is random, but it does like fun.
Fun day
Deb xx
They’re on tour in the UK right now (September 2024 in case you’re reading this in ten years time) 🤣
Deb Hawken - Amorah 