What is the last thing you learned?
I’m changing my mindset. It’s no secret that life didn’t set me to be a beaming sunbeam of giggles, and it’s all very well to understand it, but I’m fed up with it.
All self-help writers write from experience, partly so that the reader knows they do get it, they’re not just a pompous prick spouting out ideals in the face of reality. That’s good as far as it goes. But I’ve changed.
My latest learning is that I don’t want to be drawing on the past, I don’t want to be discussing negativity, I’m fed up with the attitude of this world.
In a place where all humans could have so much happiness, the miseries have got control of the zoo. The violent. The selfish. The dictators. The men who use women any way they like. Not all men just those men. Politicians. Politics.
I was bought up with a strong focus on what could go wrong, in a family that dwelt on it and made it ten times worse. Never a focus on all the wonderful this that can go right.
My family were angry, untrustworthy, gossips. Given to tearing each other down. It went back generations. I walked away.
I was taught to fear my body by a father who loved to come home and tell small children about his day at work as a front line ambulance driver We never had that time of innocence where a grazed knee was the worst tragedy imaginable. Only cured by a lollipop. We had much worse this to choose from.
If you suffer from anxiety it may very well be that you were raised by a frightened father.
Moving swiftly on
From a viewpoint of cosmic ordering it’s a bad way to be. What you think about you bring about. Because I know this I’m in a constant battle to fight that thinking and have been for far too long.
After yesterday’s learning in group I’m changing not just the nature of my thinking, but of my writing. It’s going to be fun.
I’m exploring now the idea of how I still offer help and hope, but more in the way we learn in group. Making it more fun.
My favourite blog of recent times was the one about the gift boxes, it said so much in exactly the right way.
One thing I love about learning is that it can take your life off in so many different directions, with a new attitude, new experiences, and new hope.
It’s my direction of travel! Renewal. Joy. Feeling good.
Deb xx
Deb Hawken - Amorah 