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Name the most expensive personal item you’ve ever purchased (not your home or car).

We were sitting here wracking our brains as to what that might be and came up empty. As our brains are normally filled with all kinds of garbage that was a refreshing change.

We often think about what we would do if we had a lot of money, and can’t really think of anything.

Nice house, yes. Huge to clean – absolutely not. I can’t look at mansions and palaces without thinking ‘who vacuums that?!’ We have cats so there will be no strangers chasing them with noisy sucky things in their own home. But it’s more about garden size and house position for the cats than money.

Two nice cars, yes, but nothing flashy. The idea of showing off in a world like this is nauseating. Plus I have to drive a car I’m comfortable with as I don’t particularly enjoy driving. So driving position etc., trumps money.

Jewellery? Got what we want.

In the days when we got engaged my ring was expensive, but we got it in Hatton Garden and saved money. People come shopping with me because I can sniff out a bargain from a distance of several miles. I did receive an eternity ring for our 25th and my 60th, hubby suggested two nice presents and I said why? Bless him.

Money is wonderful to have

I’ve been fortunate in life, I’ve always had sufficient. Even when we were truly poor when I was born I had everything I needed. We did need far less in those days though. But that’s a whole other blog.

I am so, so grateful for the way my life has worked out, but and except…

I suffered from acute anxiety for over 40 years, day in, day out. When you’ve fought your own mind for so long, desperately trying to hold onto sanity and at times the will to live, your not ungrateful for money, you recognise your good fortune, share where you can, but you know that nothing is more important than feeling good.

So if I ever did have a big purchase that I’ve forgotten, I can absolutely guarantee you that days and moments when I’ve felt good, or done something exciting, will be edging those memories out.

The best thing we’ve ever bought though, are our cats. Okay they’ve all been rescues except one sneaky young lady who turned up at a friend’s daughter’s house, via the tummy of a beautiful little floosy, but we still obviously contributed for our cats. Some of them have done a good job of needing expensive treatment at times, but their money is ring-fenced and we’d sell the house to help them anyway.

Apart from them the best thing I’ve ever purchased was the book and meditation CD set that helped me to eradicate my anxiety.

Joe Dispenza: Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself: How to Lose Your Mind and Create a New One.

You’re welcome

Deb xx