I know what it means
To be injured without injuries
To have everything and nothing
To be well off but emotionally impoverished
To have diamonds but no hugs
I know how it feels
To hear words without truth
To be blamed for the cruelty of others
First they make you an easy target
Undermining at every opportunity
Then they blame you for breaking
I know what it means to live a day
You’re struggling to remain in
But you know you’re meant to be here
Even though you don’t know how to stay
I know what a broken foundation feels like
Parents who were the start of the problem
Compounded by the loss of the one person
You felt certain did love you
And then spending your life questioning
Whether that could possibly be true
I have given all the love I had to give
Only to discover that it doesn’t matter
It is pointless
Because they can’t understand love
To live a day and close your eyes on blessed sleep
A few hours of escape from the inexplicable
And repeat
Repeat
Repeat
I know what it is to rise
To feel the sun on my face again
Warming my heart
Revitalising me
To face those people and be able to say
You were wrong
Because I am human
As such I am your equal
I define myself
And I define as
A thoughtful
Caring
Respectful
Inclusive
Being
Who wants others to be happy
And healthy
And safe
And succeed in their lives
I now keep space in my life
Only for equal humans
With compassion towards other
Fallible beings
Who don’t judge
Critics need not apply
Deb Hawken
October 2023
Published by debdancingstarhawken7
I'm a writer, public speaker, medium, and spiritual thinker. I suffered from acute anxiety from the age of 16 until I was well into my 50s, when I finally found methods that helped me to put it behind me. My struggles led to me exploring life through poetry, then plays, and over a 15 year period I made notes for a self help book which I published in 2015. Details on the book page. Although I am a psychic medium and loved the work, it didn’t feel right for me. It was an utter privilege, but my path was the exploration of what it means to be spirit in the real world and how we can make practical use of those abilities. Nowadays I write, blog, and teach soul-centred living, which is a gentle way of undoing past programming and connecting to your essential self, or soul. If you’re interested email me and we can chat. No pressure, it’s right for you or it’s not and you will know. The groups meet on line so no going out on cold, wet, winter’s evenings. On a personal note, I’m based in the UK. Married with five cats, no children, and four grandchildren, thanks to our inherited daughter, who has gifted us four beautiful little people that bring us such joy. Hope you enjoy the blogs. Deb xx
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Deb Hawken - Amorah 
Deb, inspirational. Not sure I could have coped! Your sad experience was a ‘training course’ to enable you to teach others. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
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